trying...

antipodean...

i am here, but not around

i am back, but unreturned

my vampire existence more apparent...

i am lost, but have found gold trapped in dirt...

discovered love, hidden in fear...

i am silent and calm; trying to understand it all, but fail to tidy everything up neatly

abandoned, yet loved, lonely and sad, yet excited... i am waiting and not

ego

pride

anger

remorse

compassion

more love...